I lost my mother to cancer when I was 21. Losing a parent at that age was a huge initiation into realizing how fragile and temporary life is. The loss of my mother very quickly diverted me onto a spiritual path of seeking what was meaningful in this life. I had a lot of questions and it was a great time of disorientation for me. A year or so later, I came to Boulder and I found yoga. When I first landed on my yoga mat, I felt like I had come home again. Syncing my breath with the movements of my body and letting go of the armor and resistance I had put up around me, allowed me to feel what was really present. I not only begin to heal the grief I was holding but I was able to feel gratitude, touching into the sacred grounds of my body and heart and trusting it was all going to be okay. I started to understand that something so much bigger was moving and holding me.
I share this story with you because my life profoundly shifted when I discovered these practices. Before I found yoga, it was easy for me to detach and disembody. It was how I coped as a sensitive being when I was a child. Regular practice, meditation, spending time in nature and feeding my body high vibrational foods and herbs has taught me how to be in connection and relationship with all of life. These practices have taught me that it’s okay to feel, in fact allowing ourselves to feel keeps us from getting stuck. My commitment to my practice on a regular basis has lead me to teach and share this gift with others.
Teaching yoga and educating people about how to live in and care for their bodies wholeheartedly has become a huge part of my vocation. This continually unfolding path is a part of my creative expression as well as a path of learning to stand my ground and be in the flow amidst the complexities of my life. Practicing yoga and my commitment to my healing and empowering journey has given me a sense of Inner authority, where I acknowledge I have choice and choice creates my reality.
My offering is an invitation for you to let go of everything you think you need to change about yourself and risk being who you are, in your truth, your strength and your vulnerability, held in a container of love. Then from there, allowing the transformation to occur. What if everything you seek, you already are? What if the raw and tender side that we try to push away, hide and ignore, is actually the doorway in and has the potential to expand us to live a life full of joy and freedom? I can tell you from my own experience, it has been.
You don’t have to do it alone. I didn’t, though I tried. We actually can’t do it alone. None of us are perfect. It has taken me many years to drop that story. I invite you to do the same, get real and honest, allow your vulnerabilities to become your greatest strengths and face your deepest fears with courage and love. Through connection, honoring our bodies on every level and slowing down enough to see what’s really going on, we will uplift and create a more joyful and inspired lives!